Why, it should be like this? Why, I’m the only one whose hurting so much. Did I really do something bad? Did I really have to deserve this? Well, I guess I was really the bad one. BAD ! BAD ! BAD ! I’m that kind of person right now. I think God has his reason why I’am like this. I hope that I will be happy like he wants me to. I hope I really can do it. The smile that I miss right now. The old me, I want it all back when I’m now ready to face all my fears. ☺

I see them so happy about it and their all laughing like nobody’s hurt. So I think I should not worry about it. I know it will be okay someday. I know my life would be normal again. And I know it will happen. I hope that I can move on. I hope that one day when I wake up, everything is fine. No worries, no crying, and most of all no heartaches. I know I will be happy again like the way it was supposed to be.

I know I did some stupid things these past few days. But you know i have my own reasons why I did that. I want my Mom to pick me up here in this king of hell. I don’t want to live like this for the rest of school years. I just want to happy just for once. The happiness that I’ve never felt before. ☺